味のしない失望を噛み拉くような
As if biting down on tasteless disappointment
ぬるい渦から抜け出すと決めた
I decided to escape from this lukewarm vortex
胸臆に従うの
I’ll follow my heart
それできみが不幸になっても
Even if it causes you to become unhappy
馬鹿みたいに煩って出した答えを
Even the answer I came up with after worrying like a fool
冷たいと思うなら思えばいいよ
If you think it’s cold, it’s fine to think so
嫌なことを嫌と言って壊れるような愛しさは
I spoke my mind frankly and it’s about to break apart, this affection
避けられず壊れていたでしょう
Unavoidably, it’ll be lying broken
あたしの味覚は憂鬱に鈍ったままだけど
Even if all I can taste is diluted in melancholy
案外当たり障りなく生きていけるものね
Unexpectedly, it seems like I can live just fine
きみなんていなくても
even without you
狭窄の痛みが右肩に散っていて
A contracted pain is spread in my right shoulder
本当の病巣を長らく見失って
It’s been long since I forgot where it really hurts
心なしか駆け足の鼓動と
That might be why, as I’m hurrying away, this throbbing and
鉛の沈黙が胸を衝く
the silence of lead stab through my chest
嘘みたいに拗らせて出した答えを
The answer I came up with after making it unbelievably worse
間違いと思うなら そう思えばいいよ
If you think it’s wrong, it’s fine to think so
わかりあえないのはとっくに気付いていたけど
Even though we’ve realized long ago that we can’t understand each other
正直 少しくらいわかってほしかった
Honestly, I wanted to understand you at least a little
きみはすぐに巻き戻そうと 言葉を探すけど
Even though you’re looking for the words to rewind things right back
壊死んだ心臓は戻らないのよ
My necrosed heart can’t be turned back to before
嫌なことを嫌と言って壊れるような愛しさは
I spoke my mind frankly and it’s about to break apart, this affection
避けられず壊れていたでしょう
Unavoidably, it’ll be lying broken
あたしの視界はきれいごとで濁ったままだ、
My vision is clouded by sugarcoated words
きみは何も伝導えられず、
You couldn’t convey anything,
あたしはその心奥に辿り着けず
and I was unable to reach your heart
ずっと回り続けるだけ
Like that, we were only going in circles
そうだったでしょう
You know that’s how it was…
Kumoito (蜘蛛糸) 